It takes two baby..

There are so many things that I want to say, but I can't because I promised myself that I would leave it alone and let it breath. It's so hard to make someone see something they refuse to, because of their own selfish ways and inability to relate to someone else and their short comings. I'm selfish too, and I have my issues, God knows that, but I'm not the only one. There is so much negativity that surrounds us and our relationship that it is no wonder we fell apart. I can't be the only one that has problems and issues, and that has to be selfless before the other is. Just because in the past you have done things doesn't mean that now you can be negative because you simply do not understand. I refuse to live a life that I have spent the last 22 years trying to run away from. I should have support and positivity from the one I love, the one that is supposed to be my other half. But I do not get that. I'm supposed to just move one and let go, when I know there is more to us than this selfish negative bubble that we live in. But I need compromise and understanding before I can go any further. It's like you're so blinded by your selfishness and your unwillingness to put yourself in my shoes and see where I have been that you can't even see past all the negative that you feel surrounds me. You strive for me to move on from my past and to be a happy positive person, yet you throw the past in my face constantly and surround me with negativity. It's not fair. You say I don't help your insecurities, but you don't help mine either and you're so into your own self and insecurities that you have no time or no room to see mine.

It's so sad.
It's so sad to see something that could be so beautiful fall apart.
And you won't even try to do anything about it.

Instead I have to come up with the solutions and I have to be the one that sits here and hurts and tries to think of all the ways we might be able to fix this.

Well no more.

If you can't see it, I won't try and make you see it.
And if you can't feel it, I won't try and make you feel it.
What's done is done, and by your own hand you have ended it.
I am no longer going to try.

You won't. So I won't.

I guess this is the goodbye I never saw coming.