The things that change us..

Last night was rough. It ended in "This is a waste of time. I'm going to take you home..", yet that isn't how the night began.. Simply because I said something that did not want to be heard.. So what do I do now? Nothing. I can do absolutely nothing but hope that today brings different moods and thoughts and.. But we shall see..

I hope that we can move past this. I do love her. So much. With everything I have. She says that no person can give one other person their whole self and trust, but I can, and I have.. I love deeply, and singly.. There is no way I could share the way I feel about her with someone else. It's not only stupid, but selfish and uncaring to do so. There is really nothing that can change the way that I feel.. We have had countless fights and stupid arguments over things that bother us, tick us off, hurt us, or just plain annoy us.. and I just cannot do anything but love her.. Am I wrong for this?

It can prove difficult when the one that you love has doubts about the love that you have for them. When they see what you have as simply taking a risk, and not as something that is serious. I am not perfect, Lord knows that I am not, but that does not change the fact that I am in love with this girl, and that I plan to spend my life with her. It does not change that I have strong feelings that don't just "come and go" as they please, that I think about her all day, that all I want is to just be with her.. If I could spend every moment in my day with her, I gladly would..

But, you cannot make a person see what they do not want to, or are afraid to. So I will not try. I will simply love, and hope that it is seen, and do things to improve my love and hopefully her trust, and we will see what happens..

One can only hope..